I'm a doctor

Someone very dear to me said, "Medicine is your profession. You get paid to treat your patient. Whether you like it or not, you need to have excellent knowledge about your patient and their diseases. You cannot jeopardize their trust just because you have lack of knowledge & interest."

Hmmphh... No matter how weary and heavy my heart is to go to work. Guess i have to learn and be the best for my patients..

"Medicine is long life study"

Knowledge can repels evil whisperers on the soul and it rids one of worries and troubles
-Ibn Hazm

Introvert

If you notice. November, 0 entry.
I guess November is my introvert month (suke hati je label that). Anyway, there are times when I doubt myself, I don't have confident, when my self-esteem drop to negative one hundred and thirty two. Whatever I'm doing, everything doesn't seems to be right!
I get tired easily. I have no motivation to work.

Well things like that do happens to me.

Right now I'm trying my best-est to gain and be myself back. I try to spend time with family more often. Recite more pages of Qur'an. Bed time story with Terjemahan Qur'an (ditch all the romance novels). I find it helpful. A lot helpful.

You know. Your fear is only to Allah SWT.
Whatever happens to you, good bad bad bad good... all has been decide. And how many good and bad is always the maximum deeds that we can earn in this world before we die.
Believe me!

You know what I did just know that makes me feels relieve. I  join for volunteering. Time and sweat volunteer. Not money volunteer. =P
I registered for non-profit organization Mercy Malaysia http://www.mercy.org.my & Islamic Relief Malaysia (IRM) http://irmblog.org .
Apparently, after register. They don't straight away send you to anywhere.
You need to go for induction. So I'm still waiting for next induction to join and be ready to do volunteer.
 I think it's going to be amazing!

Being in service to others leads to happiness.
Prophet SAW

"Whoever has extra provision, should give from it to the one who has no provision. And whoever has an extra mount should give with his extra to the one who has mount" 

Ps: Currently, doing my Obstetrics & gynecology Department as my 3rd posting in HUKM. Not really enjoying it as I used to be when I'm doing practical as a student there. As the responsibility gets heavier and pressure is so intense. 

Will do my best- InsyaAllah. 

 

Summer is over

Summer is over. This is how i feel after long between posting holiday off. Done my Surgery Department. I was in colorectal and endocrine & breast team. To be honest, it quite a bit challenging in both team. But anyway, I'm not gonna tell bout work.

I went to Kota Kinabalu! The highlight part of it is not the things I do there. But because I get to meet Muni. My beloved best-est friend. And also I get to see sunshine! God knows how long I've been working am-pm only company by moon & stars while driving.

It just Uh-may-Zing!

Muni & Me at Pasar Filiphino

 The first thing we did is talk talk talk.......We have a lot to catch up though. pheww~

Mesmerizing view on my way for Canopy Walk in Poring, KK.

Hey, I'm on top of the ... TREE !

Fact: I'm 100meter above sea level !!!  (muke cover gayat)

Deathly Canopy Walk: someone actually died here. (spooky) 

Muni post-call and i forced her for snorkeling in three island (cian die kene bully)

Sapi Island babeh

Sunburn oh no...

 

I've seen all the marine !

 Thats some of the experience in KK. It just awesome!
Thanks to Muni for all the hospitality...

The Noble

Sahih International:
Know that the life of this world is but amusement and diversion and adornment and boasting to one another and competition in increase of wealth and children - like the example of a rain whose [resulting] plant growth pleases the tillers; then it dries and you see it turned yellow; then it becomes [scattered] debris. And in the Hereafter is severe punishment and forgiveness from Allah and approval. And what is the worldly life except the enjoyment of delusion.

Qur'an 57:20

"Ya Allah, I seek for your forgiveness, for I have sinned. Give me strength to overcome my temptations, for I am weak"

The Fate

I was constructed for you.
You were molded for me.

Gurly gurly day with Izhanis...

It's been a long time since I have a chance to spend time with my sister. No point of work hard if u didn't know how to play hard. Am i right?

Here some pictures i would love to share...

U guys should try this store. The price is slightly cheaper then Zara and slightly expensive then Cotton On. But the design is very sophisticated !!
Betul tak tipu, especially when u can get 10% discount if u are a student. Well, i used Hani's card to get the discount. 

Cool.....

Ok. Then, now I'm exhausted.
Till then. =)

xoxo

The Vanilla Twilight

I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

Ours

So don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard
The stakes are high, the water's rough, but this love is ours....

My pledge to you

I will kill the lizards for you. I try. But not frogs.
I will share my vanilla ice cream with you when you have finished all yours and are still hungry.
I will try my hardest not to get annoyed when you tell your weird jokes in front of our friends.
I will let you win over the road mapping bet. Sometimes. Other times, i will not. Especially when bad traffic.
I will send you random texts. Not always. Not on schedule. Whenever i want to, whenever i think you need one. Or seven.
I will check your flight departure. I will remind you the timing when you have to leave home.

Wise Words

Hate no one, no matter how much they have wronged you. 

 Live humbly, no matter how many you 've become.  

Think positively no matter how hard life is.  

Give, even you have been given little.  

Keep in touch with the one who have forgotten you.  

Forgive those who have wronged you  

And do not stop praying for those who you love. 

- Imam Ali ibn Abi Talib -

Ramadhan 1433

Ya Allah Pardon My Sins Which Are Many,

Accept My Prayer Which Are Very Little.

Salam All,

Let welcome Ramadhan with our warmth and love ... 

We never know, this might be our last Ramadhan... 

Many people did not realize how this holy month can do so much blessing and benefit for us. Most of us just know Ramadhan is a month for Muslims to Fast. Sahur-Niat-Puasa-Bukak Puasa (terawikh or baca Qur'an).... tgk lah kalau sempat. 

That's wrong. Kindergarten kids can fast. In fact , we never know. Their deeds for fasting is double or triple us adults. Ramadhan is a month for Muslims to perform all sunnah that Nabi Muhammad SAW taught us. 

Pahala berlipat kali ganda. If only people can see how much we earn after doing good in this month. I bet all of us, running to mosque to perform terawikh. No one will go back after 8 rakaah. Everybody will stay until 20 rakaah for terawikh. 

Who knows, no one will actually go to work. All of us just want to pray and pray... 

If... we can see what Allah grant us. 

If..... 

Well, i said this. To remind me as well. 

We humans.

Making sins is like walking in a watery floor while try not to wet our feet.

 (something like that, I recall from Nabi Sulaiman to Puteri Balqis) -if im not mistaken.  Correct me if im wrong.

 Salam Ramadhan! 

Not Love

Your salary is not love and your word is not love. Your clothes are not love and holding hands is not love. Sex is not love and a kiss is not love. Long letters are not love and a text is not love. Flowers are not love and a box of chocolates is not love. Sunsets are not love and photographs are not love. The stars are not love and a beach under the moonlight is not love. The smell of someone else on your pillow is not love and the feeling of their skin touching your skin is not love. Heart-shaped candy is not love and an overseas holiday is not love. The truth is not love and winning an argument is not love. Warm coffee isn't love and cheap cards bought from stores are not love.  Tears are not love and laughter is not love. A head on a shoulder is not love and messages written at the front of books given as gifts are not love. Apathy is not love and numbness is not love. A pain in your chest is not love and clenching your fist is not love. Rain is not love.

Only you. Only you, are love.

by,
iwrotethisforyou

ps: omg! im so in love reading this... 

Agree to disagree

To love the imperfections,
To agree to disagree.

If you find one, marry him. 

Here are some beautiful quotes from a movie The Vows:

The scene when they giving vow to each other before saying I do. 

(so sweet)

"I vow to help you love life, to always hold you with tenderness, to have the patience that love demands, to speak when words are needed, and to share the silence when they are not, to agree to disagree about red velvet cake, to live within the warmth of your heart, and always call it home."

"I vow to fiercely love you in all your forms, now and forever. I promise to never forget that this is a once in a lifetime love."

xxx

The Pain of each other - House Officer Entry

Kajang- HO died for taking booster drug after 5 days of working straight.

Dear friend of mine, crying in a room for 2 days because of stress in the hospital. Get scolded everyday. Expect to finish a lot of task in little of time. Get shouted, get humiliated.
 
All of us who started our Houseman CRIED the first month of work.
It's terrible. 

*well u can judge*

MO - House Officer now a days are too pampered. They are doing less work. Less working hours. Hence, get better paid compared to our time.

Specialist- Government made a wonderful job so that the doctors workload and burden won't be too much.

Some said House Officer now a days are lazy, not-to-the-par, incompetent, slow and pampered. 

Yes. I agree.
We are not-to-the-par
We are incompetent
We are slow
We are pampered

Coz. WE ARE LEARNING. 


We are trying.
We are doing our best to keep up with the work load.
It's a process.

That's why we have 2 years to learn those things.
Don't aspect us to learn everything in 2 days or in a week. or during tagging.
 
No. I'm not complaining. But I'm just saying, don't because of one or two house officer that been absconded from work. Then u blame all the house officer in the whole country.

Honestly, for me. Being a house officer is not  as easy as a candy. It has an up and down on its own way. So please guide us, don't shout at us.
Anyway, I wrote this entry bcoz I read one MO blog, writing bout how ungrateful HO are. And I just so mad. Coz he just jump into conclusion and assumed that all of us is not doing our job well.


As for my MO - for now, very helpful and kind. Willing to help every time we need.
I'm thankful for that. Thank God. I love em' all.
I hope I nvr come across those judgmental MO's in future...
 

"Judge not the person who try & fail, but judge the person who fail to try"

Too All my Dear Friends who going through house officer, 

Qur'an Surah Insyirah (the expansion, solace, consolation & relief) Surah 94

Have we not opened ur breast for you?

And removed you, your burden

Which weigh down ur back?

And raised high ur fame?

So verily, with the hardship, there is relief.

Verily, with the hardship, there is relief

And to ur Lord turn your invocations 

xoxo

Im old

Nothing much to say. But I'm old...
I feel old...im an old lady...