Thursday, 16 December 2010

Sweet Romance: Facebook VS Tweeter

"If you miss me ... you can't text, you can't e-mail, you can't post it on my [Facebook] wall. If you really miss me, you come and see me." Quote from a movie No String Attached.

I began to think of all of the billions of intimate exchanges sent daily via fingers and screens, bouncing between satellites and servers. With all this texting, e-mailing, and social networking, I started wondering, are we all becoming so in touch with one another that we are in danger of losing touch?

It used to be that boy met girl and they exchanged phone numbers. Anticipation built. They imagined the entire relationship before a call ever happened. The phone rang. Hearts pounded. "Hello?" Followed by a conversation that lasted two hours but felt like two minutes and would be examined with friends for two weeks. If all went well, a date was arranged. That was then.

Now we exchange numbers but text instead of calling because it mitigates the risks of early failure and eliminates those deafening moments of silence. Now anticipation builds. Bdoop. "It was NICE meeting u." Both sides overanalyze every word. We talk to a friend, an impromptu Cyrano: "He wrote nice in all caps. What does that mean? What do I write back?" Then we write a response and delete it 10 times before sending a message that will appear 2 care, but not 2 much. If all goes well, a date will be arranged.

Whether you like it or not, the digital age has produced a new format for modern romance, and natural selection may be favoring the quick-thumbed quip peddler over the confident, ice-breaking alpha male. Or maybe we are hiding behind the cloak of digital text and spell-check to present superior versions of ourselves while using these less intimate forms of communication to accelerate the courting process. So what's it really good for?

Sending sweet nothings on Twitter or Facebook is also fun. In some ways, it's no different than sending flowers to the office: You are declaring your love for everyone to see. Who doesn't like to be publicly adored? Just remember that what you post is out there and there's some stuff you can't unsee.

But the reality is that we communicate with every part of our being, and there are times when we must use it all. When someone needs us, he or she needs all of us. There's no text that can replace a loving touch when someone we love is hurting.

We haven't lost romance in the digital age, but we may be neglecting it. In doing so, antiquated art forms are taking on new importance. The power of a handwritten letter is greater than ever. It's personal and deliberate and means more than an e-mail or text ever will. It has a unique scent. It requires deciphering. But, most important, it's flawed. There are errors in handwriting, punctuation, grammar, and spelling that show our vulnerability. And vulnerability is the essence of romance.

It's the art of being uncalculated, the willingness to look foolish, the courage to say,

"This is me, and I'm interested in you enough to show you my flaws with the hope that you may embrace me for all that I am but, more important, all that I am not."

Saturday, 30 October 2010

The Road Not Taken

By Robert Frost

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference

Monday, 25 October 2010

I can't make me -Butterfly Boucher

All the things I want to say but I can't

All the things I want to do but I won't

Hold me tight

Not too tight

I'm in knots and you tie me in bows

I feel pretty

I know that you care

You're so sweet

You're so so sweet

It's not a hurry tha we're in

It's the pollen

It's the spring

I can't make me love you

And you can't make me either

Patience boy I need it

I can't make me love you

Paper pen and a piece of your heart

I can read it but where do I start?

What to do? What do I do?

An I am going but I'm gonna come back

And maybe then this maybe that

Hold me tight

Not too tight

It's not a hurry that were in

There's no problem

That's the thing!

Everyday there's something new to hold onto too a little more of you

I Can't make me love you

And you can't make me either

Patience Boy

I need it

I can't make me love you

Patience Boy

on strange days

I can't make me love you

HEARTS. But Cars???

This is a data from I shock after i read this stats. I thought the top three list will be systemic diseases, but turns out to be ischemic heart disease and first runner up is transport accident? whuoaa.. u know how many hours in a day people spend time in the road. This means every second we are in the road, we risk our life~! That is so scary. Something need to be done so our transportation system.

A) Male and Female: Ischaemic heart disease (e.g. heart attack) that caused death is in the increase by about 1.5% to 14.4% (Male) & increase by about 0.8% to 8.3% (Female).

B) Female: malignant neoplasm of breast (e.g. cancerous breast tumour) that caused death is also in the increase by about 0.9% to 6.2%.

C) Male: transport accident: although stable, it is consistently the 2nd highest cause of death at about 12%.


Causes of Death in Malaysia






1. Total death





1.1 Male death





1.2 Male death %





1.3 Female death





1.4 Female death %





1.3 Medically certified





1.4 Not Medically certified





7. Top 5 principal causes of death

(Medically certified)

Male 15-64 years





7.1 Ischaemic heart disease





7.2 Transport accident





7.3 Septicaemia





7.4 Cerebrovascular disease





7.5 Pneumonia





8. Top 5 principal causes of death

(Medically certified)

Female 15-64 years





8.1 Septicaemia





8.2 Ischaemic heart disease





8.3 Cerebrovascular disease





8.4 Malignant neoplasm of breast





8.5 Transport accident


> TOP 5

> TOP 5

8.6 Pneumonia

> TOP 5



Thursday, 21 October 2010

Insha Allah by Maher Zain

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost
That your so alone
All you is see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You can't see which way to go
Don't despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah
You'll find your way

Everytime you commit one more mistake
You feel you can't repent
And that it's way too late
Your're so confused, wrong decisions you have made
Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame

Don't despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side
Insha Allah
You'll find your way
Insha Allah
You'll find your way

Turn to Allah
He's never far away
Put your trust in Him
Raise your hands and pray
OOO Ya Allah
Guide my steps don't let me go astray
You're the only one that showed me the way,
Showed me the way

Insha Allah
We'll find the way
Insha Allah
We'll find the way
Ps: Everyone must at least have one episode of their deep, dark and twisted life. Listen to this song will somehow take time off from it and it may give you the strength to get back up. ^^

Thursday, 2 September 2010

Be like a fireflies, enchanted dark forest with their lights..

Fireflies produce a "cold light", with no infrared or ultraviolet frequencies. This chemically-produced light from the lower abdomen may be yellow, green, or pale red

Using a slow shutter speed on the camera makes the fireflies appear to leave ghostly phosphorescent trails between the trees

No, these aren't deleted scenes from James Cameron's sci-fi epic Avatar - these spectacular images show mesmerising phosphorescent patterns swirling through a forest that are all produced by earthbound insects.

Fireflies are winged beetles and give off a green luminous glow from chemicals in their lower abdomen in a process called bioluminescence.

As babies - the larval stage of the insects' lives - they use their glow to warn off predators but as adults they use the same phenomenon to attract mates.

Wednesday, 1 September 2010

As though no one is watching you.


as though you have never been hurt before


as though no one can hear you


as though heaven is here on earth

Sunday, 29 August 2010

My Last Words For You

It was good that you flew away

Forever and ever and never to return

I don’t know how to say goodbye

So I’ll just except the pain

What hurts the most is not the goodbye; it's how u left

It's pityful....

Then you came back and ask forgiveness

People said, what you've done is beyond human being would do

Its so hard to believe that a friend could hurt you so bad

I somehow can't accept the fact you would do that to me

But there you go, i forgave you

Even i can't forgot but still

I forgave you..

Now you got what you want

Stop pretending that you care

Cause it makes me sick

Knowing that you try to add more lies to me

Cause I'm happy now with my life

I'm doing fine

At least you could do know is be honest with yourself

Deeper, and deeper, the wounds in my heart

But I'm healing

You are now my past, something that wasn’t ever meant to last

We might as well be a stranger, but you still will always be my memories

Thursday, 12 August 2010

Marhaban Ya Ramadhan...

A new night of the sacred month, the thin slice of the moon, the crescent. It's a year of Allah's love for me. It's been a tough year for me, yet now it's Ramadhan. I was blessed coz being able to celebrate this month. Fyi, 18 Ramadhan is my birthday in Islamic calender. Yes i'm a ramadhan baby, and so proud of it. What a very good to open ur eyes in this month, and i hope i will leave this world in a good way. InsyaAllah. Hope we all will take advantage of this holy month. As for myself, it's a new month in a new place. Be strong coz Allah know what's best for you... =)

Thursday, 15 July 2010

Fire and Ice

Robert Frost

Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.

Crush it , break it Apart !!!

Can you count all the times
That you've mended my heart
Just so you could again Crush it, Break it apart?

Yet, you've got no idea
That I'm hurt all the while
Cause I hide all my pain
With a laugh and a smile

All my rage and frustration
They are secrets to you

I'm a pretty good actor

Cause you don't have a clue

I have made it an art

It's greatest learned skill
Hiding all of this damn Fuckin pain that I feel
Yet sometimes it leaks through

Sometimes I botch my act
Sometimes you see my pain
Sometimes I can't hold back

I regret if you noticed

I didn't wanna seem shallow

But sometimes it's too much

It's more than I can swallow

Monday, 5 July 2010

When it isn’t like it should be

It’s July now. True, i totally agree- time flies. Now I’m doing my psychiatry cycle and its been 3 weeks now. I met a lot of interesting people since I’m in this hospital. I admit it’s hard to communicate with the patient there but once u get to know them, it sooo fascinating how their life seems so perfect before they get sick mentally. And how stupid our community didn’t know how to support those people.

There is one very amazing young boy i met in the hospital. When i when to ward, i saw him from far away, he was sitting alone, while his head looking at the dirt. His face looks like he got a thousand things in his mind. So i when near him and introduced myself. He seems so normal at first, but after an hour and half we talked. I knew something wrong with him. He got this amazing theory on how on earth he is a messenger from God, how he was chosen by God, and why. Everything seems so perfect in his story. It surely does can make a blockbuster movie. I can’t reviled his story here in public, its a doctor-patient confidential thingy.

My working diagnose for him is Schizophrenia Paranoid.

This evening I met his lovely mother, we talked. I asked her how he really is before he got sick. Then his mom told me everything. He is a brilliant boy! He even got a scholarship in his school every year since junior high school. He a very cheerful boy who loves football and play games with friends. He is loved by all, even his neighbours cause he likes to help people. Then when she told me his story, she broke down and tears running from her eyes. It shows how sad she is because her beloved son who seems so perfect can get this so called crazy-disease. All his dreams vanished and he seems no sign of recovery for the past years.

I surely learn a lot from today’s lesson. So live according to your reality without always envisioning the ideal life, one that is free from worry and toil. Accept life as it is and adapt accordingly to all circumstances.

“And It May Be That You Dislike A Thing That Is Good For You” Qur’an 2:216

Friday, 4 June 2010

Hello New World Of Medicine!

No more games. No more childish behaviour. No more long hours of sleep. No more dvd marathon. and HELLO clinical rotation !
Well, my first cycle is Neurology in RS Husada, Mangga Besar. It's been 3 weeks now.
Me with Ruth, Andhica, Seto, Gustave & Arry were destined to be in this cycle. There are so cool and quite naughty. Actually we all are. Most of our time there I spend laughing with them. Especially Gus2 the one that always love to makes jokes even in distress situation.
Our consulant there is so nice, but all of them were so busy. So it's kind of hard to squeeze time to ask for their tutorial or so called “Bimbingan”.

Friday, 26 March 2010

Contemplate & be thankful

Today I just want to write how my perspective changed about Islam. Well, before this I do believe in Islam. I do things that as what Qur'an said and I thought, by just that I can go to heaven. Sometimes I thought that by just being nice to people, not doing crime, wearing hijjab, solat 5 times a day, fasting in Ramadhan...all those stuff can send me to heaven. I do all that, but I do it, because I'm scared of going to Hell.Just as simple as that... There is no sincerity deep down in my heart.

But now, everything is different. Qur'an is more than that, Islam is much more than life after death. It's a GUIDANCE. Guidance in your daily life. Guidance to you how to be a good daughter, a good student, a good doctor, a good friend and being the best in everything that you do. Not just that, it give us hope when darkness come into our life. Qur'an is a LIFE MANUAL. Basically, it is about HOW TO LIVE IN THE WORLD. I mean how could you don't know that. Before this we recite Qur'an without trying to understand the meaning in it. I myself Khatam Qur'an many times before, but honestly I never read the meaning in it. So what's the point of it? Recite Qur'an for a 1 deed 1 alphabet? For a peaceful heart when you hear the people recite it melancholy?

I bet so many Muslims now days never bother to read the meaning of Qur'an, and because of that many of us lost from His path.
Once you fully understand it, InsyaAllah ull be able to follow the right path to happiness in earth nor life after it. Be able to understand the main reason why we come to earth. It will protect you from everything. Oh my, how beaautiful Islam is. Every question that been bothering you, everything. You will find the answer in Qur'an. InsyaAllah.

Now I've learn everything that comes into my life, either it's a good things or a bad things.. Both are a sign Allah remember us...
For those that are afflicted with disaster, glad tiding awaits them so remain patient and happy with your Lord. For those a great thing happens, be grateful to Him. (^_^)

" So Hold That Which I have Given You And Be of The Greatful"(Qur'an 7:144)