It’s July now. True, i totally agree- time flies. Now I’m doing my psychiatry cycle and its been 3 weeks now. I met a lot of interesting people since I’m in this hospital. I admit it’s hard to communicate with the patient there but once u get to know them, it sooo fascinating how their life seems so perfect before they get sick mentally. And how stupid our community didn’t know how to support those people.
There is one very amazing young boy i met in the hospital. When i when to ward, i saw him from far away, he was sitting alone, while his head looking at the dirt. His face looks like he got a thousand things in his mind. So i when near him and introduced myself. He seems so normal at first, but after an hour and half we talked. I knew something wrong with him. He got this amazing theory on how on earth he is a messenger from God, how he was chosen by God, and why. Everything seems so perfect in his story. It surely does can make a blockbuster movie. I can’t reviled his story here in public, its a doctor-patient confidential thingy.
My working diagnose for him is Schizophrenia Paranoid.
This evening I met his lovely mother, we talked. I asked her how he really is before he got sick. Then his mom told me everything. He is a brilliant boy! He even got a scholarship in his school every year since junior high school. He a very cheerful boy who loves football and play games with friends. He is loved by all, even his neighbours cause he likes to help people. Then when she told me his story, she broke down and tears running from her eyes. It shows how sad she is because her beloved son who seems so perfect can get this so called crazy-disease. All his dreams vanished and he seems no sign of recovery for the past years.
I surely learn a lot from today’s lesson. So live according to your reality without always envisioning the ideal life, one that is free from worry and toil. Accept life as it is and adapt accordingly to all circumstances.
“And It May Be That You Dislike A Thing That Is Good For You” Qur’an 2:216
No more games. No more childish behaviour. No more long hours of sleep. No more dvd marathon. and HELLO clinical rotation !
Well, my first cycle is Neurology in RS Husada, Mangga Besar. It's been 3 weeks now.
Me with Ruth, Andhica, Seto, Gustave & Arry were destined to be in this cycle. There are so cool and quite naughty. Actually we all are. Most of our time there I spend laughing with them. Especially Gus2 the one that always love to makes jokes even in distress situation.
Our consulant there is so nice, but all of them were so busy. So it's kind of hard to squeeze time to ask for their tutorial or so called “Bimbingan”.
Today I just want to write how my perspective changed about Islam. Well, before this I do believe in Islam. I do things that as what Qur'an said and I thought, by just that I can go to heaven. Sometimes I thought that by just being nice to people, not doing crime, wearing hijjab, solat 5 times a day, fasting in Ramadhan...all those stuff can send me to heaven. I do all that, but I do it, because I'm scared of going to Hell.Just as simple as that... There is no sincerity deep down in my heart.
But now, everything is different. Qur'an is more than that, Islam is much more than life after death. It's a GUIDANCE. Guidance in your daily life. Guidance to you how to be a good daughter, a good student, a good doctor, a good friend and being the best in everything that you do. Not just that, it give us hope when darkness come into our life. Qur'an is a LIFE MANUAL. Basically, it is about HOW TO LIVE IN THE WORLD. I mean how could you don't know that. Before this we recite Qur'an without trying to understand the meaning in it. I myself Khatam Qur'an many times before, but honestly I never read the meaning in it. So what's the point of it? Recite Qur'an for a 1 deed 1 alphabet? For a peaceful heart when you hear the people recite it melancholy?
I bet so many Muslims now days never bother to read the meaning of Qur'an, and because of that many of us lost from His path.
Once you fully understand it, InsyaAllah ull be able to follow the right path to happiness in earth nor life after it. Be able to understand the main reason why we come to earth. It will protect you from everything. Oh my, how beaautiful Islam is. Every question that been bothering you, everything. You will find the answer in Qur'an. InsyaAllah.
Now I've learn everything that comes into my life, either it's a good things or a bad things.. Both are a sign Allah remember us...
For those that are afflicted with disaster, glad tiding awaits them so remain patient and happy with your Lord. For those a great thing happens, be grateful to Him. (^_^)
