Introvert

If you notice. November, 0 entry.
I guess November is my introvert month (suke hati je label that). Anyway, there are times when I doubt myself, I don't have confident, when my self-esteem drop to negative one hundred and thirty two. Whatever I'm doing, everything doesn't seems to be right!
I get tired easily. I have no motivation to work.

Well things like that do happens to me.

Right now I'm trying my best-est to gain and be myself back. I try to spend time with family more often. Recite more pages of Qur'an. Bed time story with Terjemahan Qur'an (ditch all the romance novels). I find it helpful. A lot helpful.

You know. Your fear is only to Allah SWT.
Whatever happens to you, good bad bad bad good... all has been decide. And how many good and bad is always the maximum deeds that we can earn in this world before we die.
Believe me!

You know what I did just know that makes me feels relieve. I  join for volunteering. Time and sweat volunteer. Not money volunteer. =P
I registered for non-profit organization Mercy Malaysia http://www.mercy.org.my & Islamic Relief Malaysia (IRM) http://irmblog.org .
Apparently, after register. They don't straight away send you to anywhere.
You need to go for induction. So I'm still waiting for next induction to join and be ready to do volunteer.
 I think it's going to be amazing!

Being in service to others leads to happiness.
Prophet SAW

"Whoever has extra provision, should give from it to the one who has no provision. And whoever has an extra mount should give with his extra to the one who has mount" 

Ps: Currently, doing my Obstetrics & gynecology Department as my 3rd posting in HUKM. Not really enjoying it as I used to be when I'm doing practical as a student there. As the responsibility gets heavier and pressure is so intense. 

Will do my best- InsyaAllah. 

 

Gurly gurly day with Izhanis...

It's been a long time since I have a chance to spend time with my sister. No point of work hard if u didn't know how to play hard. Am i right?

Here some pictures i would love to share...

U guys should try this store. The price is slightly cheaper then Zara and slightly expensive then Cotton On. But the design is very sophisticated !!
Betul tak tipu, especially when u can get 10% discount if u are a student. Well, i used Hani's card to get the discount. 

Cool.....

Ok. Then, now I'm exhausted.
Till then. =)

xoxo

Ramadhan 1433

Ya Allah Pardon My Sins Which Are Many,

Accept My Prayer Which Are Very Little.

Salam All,

Let welcome Ramadhan with our warmth and love ... 

We never know, this might be our last Ramadhan... 

Many people did not realize how this holy month can do so much blessing and benefit for us. Most of us just know Ramadhan is a month for Muslims to Fast. Sahur-Niat-Puasa-Bukak Puasa (terawikh or baca Qur'an).... tgk lah kalau sempat. 

That's wrong. Kindergarten kids can fast. In fact , we never know. Their deeds for fasting is double or triple us adults. Ramadhan is a month for Muslims to perform all sunnah that Nabi Muhammad SAW taught us. 

Pahala berlipat kali ganda. If only people can see how much we earn after doing good in this month. I bet all of us, running to mosque to perform terawikh. No one will go back after 8 rakaah. Everybody will stay until 20 rakaah for terawikh. 

Who knows, no one will actually go to work. All of us just want to pray and pray... 

If... we can see what Allah grant us. 

If..... 

Well, i said this. To remind me as well. 

We humans.

Making sins is like walking in a watery floor while try not to wet our feet.

 (something like that, I recall from Nabi Sulaiman to Puteri Balqis) -if im not mistaken.  Correct me if im wrong.

 Salam Ramadhan! 

The Pain of each other - House Officer Entry

Kajang- HO died for taking booster drug after 5 days of working straight.

Dear friend of mine, crying in a room for 2 days because of stress in the hospital. Get scolded everyday. Expect to finish a lot of task in little of time. Get shouted, get humiliated.
 
All of us who started our Houseman CRIED the first month of work.
It's terrible. 

*well u can judge*

MO - House Officer now a days are too pampered. They are doing less work. Less working hours. Hence, get better paid compared to our time.

Specialist- Government made a wonderful job so that the doctors workload and burden won't be too much.

Some said House Officer now a days are lazy, not-to-the-par, incompetent, slow and pampered. 

Yes. I agree.
We are not-to-the-par
We are incompetent
We are slow
We are pampered

Coz. WE ARE LEARNING. 


We are trying.
We are doing our best to keep up with the work load.
It's a process.

That's why we have 2 years to learn those things.
Don't aspect us to learn everything in 2 days or in a week. or during tagging.
 
No. I'm not complaining. But I'm just saying, don't because of one or two house officer that been absconded from work. Then u blame all the house officer in the whole country.

Honestly, for me. Being a house officer is not  as easy as a candy. It has an up and down on its own way. So please guide us, don't shout at us.
Anyway, I wrote this entry bcoz I read one MO blog, writing bout how ungrateful HO are. And I just so mad. Coz he just jump into conclusion and assumed that all of us is not doing our job well.


As for my MO - for now, very helpful and kind. Willing to help every time we need.
I'm thankful for that. Thank God. I love em' all.
I hope I nvr come across those judgmental MO's in future...
 

"Judge not the person who try & fail, but judge the person who fail to try"

Too All my Dear Friends who going through house officer, 

Qur'an Surah Insyirah (the expansion, solace, consolation & relief) Surah 94

Have we not opened ur breast for you?

And removed you, your burden

Which weigh down ur back?

And raised high ur fame?

So verily, with the hardship, there is relief.

Verily, with the hardship, there is relief

And to ur Lord turn your invocations 

xoxo

The Beginners

Hello World. Goodbye my old-nice-cozy-lovely-awesome student life...
Just finished my induction today at Tiara Beach Resort, Port Dickson. Somehow I feel like - I have an hour to live before I die.
Been thinking what should I do for my last weekend as free man.
I got my second choice posting which is in HUKM (Hospital Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia).

Been thinking about appealing, but when there are some of my friends who didn't actually get what is in their choices hospital to go. So, aku bersyukur dengan takdir Allah SWT ini.

Heard so many good and bad stories about this hospital. Been there twice, and the doctors are all scary. Even medical student there scares me.
There are like all looking so BRILLIANT! you know, the one who wore a spec, a doctor coat, holding a thick book, walking with a speed like running, talking stuff that I never heard about...
phewww...
The main point is, it's scary!

Anyway, here is my plan.

1) I'm just gonna go there, get myself registered.
2) Get to know the surrounding like the ward and lab. (ok i lied, actually i nak tahu canteen - nak test makanan sodap ke idak)
3) Just do my work and learn in the process.

#prayforizreen (buat trend dkt tweet pun blh)

Dis is from my mom,
She asks me to read this and amalkan...



O ye who believe! Persevere in patience and constancy; vie in such perseverance; strengthen each other; and fear Allah; that ye may prosper.

"Wahai Orang-orang beriman! Bersabarlah kamu dan kuatkanlah kesabaranmu dan tetaplah bersiap-siap ( di atas perbatasan negerimu) dan bertakwalah kepada Allah agar kamu beruntung "

(Qur'an Al-Imran Verse 2oo)

When u going through Housemanship, Ur parents is also going through Housemanship !
by Dato' Dr. Sree

InsyaAllah.

At Tiara Beach Resort with Dr. Syura

Surat yang ditunggu-tunggu

Opsy-a-cupcakes...

Walla.... my first making cupcakes!!

I know it looks good. But the truth is, the cupcakes taste bad. So bad. Until my always-hungry-brother Izham only ate it one!

My mistake is that, I'm using a tepung kek naik sendiri as a flour. Then.... I add some more baking powder. Make it taste well..slightly bitter...

Opsy a cupcakes!!

Well, I'm not gonna give up. Gonna try again, first thing in the morning...

Wish me luck! he-he....

I'm done here

tomorrow is my last exam as coass here in Jakarta. If i pass it. dr. tittle will be added to my name.
such a joy to celebrate after hurdles by hurdles u jump, most of the time u fall.

the knowledge, the survival, the betrayal, the life.

basically, just by finishing ur degree, doesn't mean u r good in meds. but it teaches how to life.
and definitely how to be a better muslim...

i believe that Allah chooses me to be where am i today, is the best for myself... so i can be nearer to Him.

Aminn.


ps: my parents are coming dis weekend.
cant wait.

lots of smile... =)))))))

Jual Ikan = Sell Fish

Selfish person is the person who only cares about em self.

or devoted to or caring only for oneself; concerned primarily with one's own interests, benefits, welfare, etc., regardless of others.

These few days I've been wondering why the called a person with such behavior is SELFISH. why the word is sell fish? u know, selling fish.

So here is a theory i made up on my own..

The person who selling fish will not have enough fish to eat. Therefore, they lack of omega-3-fatty acid.

As we all know, fish may have earned its reputation as “brain food” because some people eat fish to help with depression, psychosis, attention deficit-hyperactivity disorder (ADHD), Alzheimer’s disease, and other thinking disorders.

If the person is selfish ---> lack of omega-3 ---> prone to psychosis diseases or other thinking disorders.

so

ta-daa

my theory is simple, org selfish adalah org yang tak berape betul skit.

moral value: if you found one, just do em a favor. Giv em some omega-3 supplement! ! !

Ha-ha.

It just my imagination theory coz lately I've been dealing with selfish person.. so

forgive me for my craziness..

XOXO

Just Us...

What Is A Friend? A friend is someone always there
in the back of your mind,
providing feelings of comfort and security.
A friend is someone
who adds happy sparkle to your life,
joy, fun, a predictable creator of happiness.
A friend is a stormproof shelter
from life’s challenges, troubles, uncertainties,
an unassailable bond overcoming any challenge,
strengthening the connection in the process.
You are all this and more, my friend.
Thank you. By Joanna Fuchs

Ladies & Gentleman,
Meet my best best-est friend. My Housemate. My Soul mates. My Sisters.
From the left above clockwise Along, Elisya, Shaheda, Muni & me & Bai (not in the picture).

For five years, we have been together, going through hurdles one by one. Supporting each other, ever since the first year doing medical in Jakarta.

Now, we are all doing our last cycle in clinical.
Treasuring each and every moment together...
Even though the burden of last cycle is unbearable, hope we can make it.
Amin ya Raball Alamin..

Love,
Izreen

Miss Complained

It's August people! Marhaban ya Ramadhan. I'm now doing my Paeds cycle in RS Simpangan Depok. It's a veeeeeeery small hospital which may consume only 15 bed max for children!

For major cycle, this is the first time I was assign in such 'cute' hospital for 10 hold weeks. My working hours starts from 8 am till 4 pm, and oncall every 2 days. To cut it short, basically i have lots and lots free time in the hospital. Where my patients only 2-6 tops.
I complained.

"Isk, RS kecik nak belajar ape?"

"My precious time is wasted in this freakin' Hosp!" *at wits end*

"Ok, dah habis follow up. Now what?"

"Ah, benci la hospital nie"

"Perawat itu bodoh, malas plak tue, ganti infus pun nak cari Coass! "

I complained. Complained. Complained. Everyday!

Till I'm tired of complaining.

Then I realized, if I was send in a big hospital where my patients is triple my work is double, would i be complaining too? Hell, yeah. huhu..
I'm such a complainer.

That's not good.

From now on, I will be grateful with what I have.

"Pasien skit pun tak pe la, boleh concentrate more on em"

"Oh, dah habis follow up, now i nak study la... then gonna watch CSI" Muahahah...

"Kakak nak suruh coass ganti infus? boleh2... I don't mine doing nurses work" At least i learning. Mane tahu nak bukak hospital sendiri ke nanti in future.

Ha...that's more I like it. =)

Optimistic Me.

Happy thoughts

It's been some time since I'm into this blog-sphere. Well I barely got time to sit and ponder what should I write in my not-so-called blog. he-he.

I'm now doing ENT cycle in RS Husada, Mangga Besar. It was quite a bit relaxing cycle I have to say. Finally, i got some time on my own. You now, being a clinical year as a meds student. That's beyond crazy heaven on earth. More then anything u may asked for. Just finished my patient's exam last Saturday. Alhamdulillah, it when well. Thanks to the prayer from people so dear around me.

Before that, i was in RS Koja doing my obstetrics and gynecology cycle. I 'welcomed' total 15 babies in this world. It's the greatest feeling of all. But the time, the energy, the patience, the smells, the blood, the stomach grumbling that you have to put up with, its unimaginable.
Let's put up this way, the time i slept is the same time i charged my phone. Just imagine.

Anyway, next Wednesday. Finally. I'm going home. I. miss. home. so. badly. Ok what i meant is i miss Mama & Ayah so bad.
Even it's only for 4 days. But, I'm so happy!!!

So, what are some good things about your day lately?

Air Terjun

Last week my friends and me decided to go hiking to see the beautiful waterfall... Well i heard bout it. Alhamdulillah sampai jugak dkt atas sana. It tooks us 2 hours and half to reach on the top. As u know, we are not true hiker, so we stop almost every half an hour walking. The track are quite challenging... But we did it.. heheh..

So here are the video i took some pictures i would like to share.... =)

GUNUNG GEDE PANGRANGO, SALABINTANA
SUKABUMI INDONESIA

Tinggikan air terjun die? kalau berdiri dekat angin die kuat sgt, mcm titanic!!

Pose depan one of Allah's magnificence creation

Yedy and me

Still smiling even my feet hurts..

Pacat! Siape tahu beza pacat dengan lintah?

I kene 1 pacat dekat tangan, dengan ade 2 dkt seluar, lucky i wore jeans yg tebal, tak sempat tembus lagi..

Peace~!

ok there is an interesting story in this picture. First of all, its a medic crew comes in handy, Johan need it coz die kene pacat dkt perut! ok perut? how come? i pun tak tau la mcm mane blh kene dkt situ. And the bleeding won't stop. He keeps mumbling about it all the way. Arh.. and then pacat marah kot kan,.then die kene gigit lagi dkt kaki and tapak kaki.. so the medic crew dtg la..
then we want to take picture, but then ade bumble bee!!! buzzing around me and yedi...
punye pandai la photographer itu.. main snap je..
so there you go..
heheh

ps: elisya supposed to join us, but she got sick with diarrhea... to bad!! anyway get well soon gurl..

SUKABUMI the LIKE-EARTH PLACE

WOW! It’s been almost one year I masuk clinical. Tinggal another 10 bulan lagi.. Hopefully semua cycle berjalan lancar. AMinnn

Now I dkt Sukabumi lagii yoo.... it’s like 2-3 hours journey from Jakarta. But kalau macet (jammed), blh sampai 7 jam Ohh..

Sukabumi nie mcm Cameron Highlands la dkt Msia. So u can imagine the road. (@_@)

This is my second time coming here. The first time I’m doing my Dermatology cycle….

We explore sukabumi every chance we get. Here some of the special memories…

Far to the left, Nisa. She is a beautiful nurse in our hosp. Her family cook for us, masakan

NASI KREMES (rase mcm nasi lemak la) but a bit different. Sedap kot, licin makan coz lapar baru lepas mandi.

And best part is MAKAN ATAS DAUN PISANG!!

This is the picture we took when we when to the riverside.. Its damn cold..

Having fun mandi sungai!! (lame gile kot dah tak mandi sungai mcm nie)

The next day, we ride like a pro babeh!! ‘_<

Well now I’m doing my Ophthalmology Cycle..the clinics is so tiring.. Ramai gile patients..sehari sampai 80 pun ade.

I wonder where they all come from.huhu.. well sukabumi is not that big..

Looking forward for another great adventure this tyme…

Chao..